EPISODE 6.

Hey. at night update. will try to update more okaay^^. if you were asking me what was the answer of mhy beloved friends about tomorrow's plan was... Ariena, dont want to reply. she's always like that. fuck. Cherry? she says this whole week, she was busy. ok fine. i will just hang out alone. why my life, every where i go, my status was *ALONE*. like no life. i got ever think of why i was born in this world. my family, treat me well, as a maid. i mean like a maid. friends? betrayed me, ignored me, walling me. understand what i mean? no. K-.- well . i can easily understand what im writing. i feels left away, like a foster child, my breakfast, lunch and also dinner was always sucks. some secret to tell you, almost 4 times a week i ate maggie up. maybe sardines? that's the reason why im so thin like a stick girl and the rest of my family arent. sometimes, i say i hate my body and so on because i want to feel what the others  do. i would like to be tag along when you guys got exercises to do. its not about losing more weight . its about i want to be fit. i ate up a lot. till rice in my house finished. you cant see improvements. in one month, i grew taller by 5cm or what so ever. you guys says im short. yes i do, but its hurtful. i cant help myself. by drinking milk also doesnt change it. i grew up taller because every night i jump in my bed like someone's mad. you just dont know. at school, i almost finish my money because i bought milks, snack and rice. bubble tea? you know, i always buy bubble tea that contains milk. i do eat outside for my dinner sometimes, but what i ate is what i taste. i buy one plate for myself. you know what? my sisters and mother suddenly take their fork/spoon and taste some. if it taste nice, they'll take more. how can i be fat? i always drink up milo when i'm having dinner.. i cant blame anyone. but, i blame myself. you guys are lucky to have the things that i dont. you guys dont ever understand what my feelings are. you think im joking? my life is not a joke.
and hell, my dinner is just a fried noodles and blueberry drink. :( i cant upload pictures now. my wifi is running out of service. snap a pic just now. upload soon. i got nothing much to update. i hate my life. fml.